Fuck it! I need help. Years of therapy to deal with childhood trauma and abuse then therapy for relationship problems then therapy for fallout from abuse as an adult. Now therapy because the relationship that I thought would be forever ended without me even having an opportunity to say anything about it.

I though the sense of closure I had for the past few days would mean that I’m in a better place. I think instead it means I’ve accelerated getting to a shittier place. I’m sure there’s a unicorn with a pile of freshly extruded ice cream on the other side of this but right now I’m wrecked emotionally.

I hope talking it out with a professional will help.