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I kept getting this question from women who have autistic partners. There is a bit of rambling with setup and rehashing things already discussed but I wanted to give context. The answer part starts around the 35 minute mark.

As autistics we are often inclined to see ourselves as the ones who need to give ground when there is conflict. Years of being told not to fidget, not to bounce our legs, not to spin around, not to grunt or clear our throat. It all results in a feeling that we’re expected to change…

Yes, I’m past the depressive stuff (at least, as far as I can tell). That doesn’t mean I’m not still dealing with strong emotions, including sorrow and anxiety. The lawyer needed me to write up some things and in the process of doing so, I started to get triggered and have a PTS meltdown. Luckily…

There are people out there who know how too be compassionate. This is an exchange I had with my friend Autumn. She’s a really sweet person who has her own struggles in life but doesn’t let that keep her from being patient, understanding, and kind.

I got a comment about two weeks ago where someone asked what I mean when I say that the aftermath of the PTS episode resulted in a complete dis-regulation of my unconscious masking and now I’m semi-non-verbal at times. I’m feeling every nanometer of my skin and the clothing sliding against it, the hair on…

Lawyer asked me for docs and copies of text messages. Going through them is triggering flashbacks. I don’t know whether to keep going or stop. I’m getting a nauseated feeling in my stomach. My sensory input sensitivity is at an 11 out of ten. Just sitting here typing this on my phone, my legs can’t…

Understanding the internal legacy of traumatic events and persistent trauma.