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This is what I mean by semi-non-verbal
I got a comment about two weeks ago where someone asked what I mean when I say that the aftermath of the PTS episode resulted in a complete dis-regulation of my unconscious masking and now I’m semi-non-verbal at times. I’m feeling every nanometer of my skin and the clothing sliding against it, the hair on…
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Bad anxiety today
Lawyer asked me for docs and copies of text messages. Going through them is triggering flashbacks. I don’t know whether to keep going or stop. I’m getting a nauseated feeling in my stomach. My sensory input sensitivity is at an 11 out of ten. Just sitting here typing this on my phone, my legs can’t…
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PTSD and CPTSD
Understanding the internal legacy of traumatic events and persistent trauma.
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Finally think I’m past the depression
After the abuse and bullshit with M, I went into full on PTS mode for a week. That’s a week of reliving the sexual abuse, the psychological abuse, and the physical abuse I went through as a child as well as a few instances of mate crime. I had profound anxiety both general and social…
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Autism and social interactions
It’s common for autistic people to want to have a script or general guidelines for potential interactions. One might ask our partners ahead of time how they would like for us to respond in the event that a particular social dynamic manifests itself so that we aren’t caught off guard with a scenario that we…
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Instant anxiety after feeling great the day before
After a day of feeling really good I got panicked when I went to the grocery store and a girl flirted with me.