It’s interesting how M used her knowledge of my past trauma against me. I can’t tell you how many times she “accidentally” did something inconsiderate, insensitive, or just fucked up and then apologized as if she were mortified that she could be so careless after I reminded her that there were sensitivities around the topic she’d brought up.

The more time passes the more I realize just how manipulative and fucked up her behavior was. I was sexually assaulted as a child and M used that against me in her toxic rage and devaluation phase. She also talks about how she has a crust on an 11 y/o so…. Go figure