It’s interesting how M used her knowledge of my past trauma against me. I can’t tell you how many times she “accidentally” did something inconsiderate, insensitive, or just fucked up and then apologized as if she were mortified that she could be so careless after I reminded her that there were sensitivities around the topic…

I made the mistake of thinking that M’s bullshit was just her being emotionally overwhelmed. As a result, I allowed myself and my emotional needs to be subordinated to her whims. I should have called her out on her bullshit, in an appropriate manner, long before I allowed her to get close enough to hurt…