Yes, I’m past the depressive stuff (at least, as far as I can tell). That doesn’t mean I’m not still dealing with strong emotions, including sorrow and anxiety. The lawyer needed me to write up some things and in the process of doing so, I started to get triggered and have a PTS meltdown. Luckily…

There are people out there who know how too be compassionate. This is an exchange I had with my friend Autumn. She’s a really sweet person who has her own struggles in life but doesn’t let that keep her from being patient, understanding, and kind.

I got a comment about two weeks ago where someone asked what I mean when I say that the aftermath of the PTS episode resulted in a complete dis-regulation of my unconscious masking and now I’m semi-non-verbal at times. I’m feeling every nanometer of my skin and the clothing sliding against it, the hair on…

Lawyer asked me for docs and copies of text messages. Going through them is triggering flashbacks. I don’t know whether to keep going or stop. I’m getting a nauseated feeling in my stomach. My sensory input sensitivity is at an 11 out of ten. Just sitting here typing this on my phone, my legs can’t…

Understanding the internal legacy of traumatic events and persistent trauma.

After the abuse and bullshit with M, I went into full on PTS mode for a week. That’s a week of reliving the sexual abuse, the psychological abuse, and the physical abuse I went through as a child as well as a few instances of mate crime. I had profound anxiety both general and social…