Lawyer asked me for docs and copies of text messages. Going through them is triggering flashbacks. I don’t know whether to keep going or stop. I’m getting a nauseated feeling in my stomach. My sensory input sensitivity is at an 11 out of ten. Just sitting here typing this on my phone, my legs can’t…

Understanding the internal legacy of traumatic events and persistent trauma.

After the abuse and bullshit with M, I went into full on PTS mode for a week. That’s a week of reliving the sexual abuse, the psychological abuse, and the physical abuse I went through as a child as well as a few instances of mate crime. I had profound anxiety both general and social…

It’s common for autistic people to want to have a script or general guidelines for potential interactions. One might ask our partners ahead of time how they would like for us to respond in the event that a particular social dynamic manifests itself so that we aren’t caught off guard with a scenario that we…

After a day of feeling really good I got panicked when I went to the grocery store and a girl flirted with me.

Today I almost cried just going to the pet store because I don’t know how to human anymore